Entries from March 2008
Well, still having far too much dark & suicidal ideati0n (not the kind I’d even remotely act on, just keep popping into my head…) so after a long consult with VA psychiatrist(I’m so impressed with him, and VA care in general) he said I should try a tiny dose half a tab (37.5mg) of B upr*pion (generic W3lbutr*n). We shall see.
The sciatica has continued to be way above it’s normal baseline, which has me more t’d off than anything. Interrupting sleep more than usual, harder to ignore…. sigh, the struggle without an end…
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Tagged: , chronic pain management, Dealing with it: Meds, Acupuncture, the How's of Coping, death wish, Riding the Tiger, sciatica, suicide
Well, still having far too much dark & suicidal ideati0n (not the kind I’d even remotely act on, just keep popping into my head…) so after a long consult with VA psychiatrist(I’m so impressed with him, and VA care in general) he said I should try a tiny dose half a tab (37.5mg) of B upr*pion (generic W3lbutr*n). We shall see.
The sciatica has continued to be way above it’s normal baseline, which has me more t’d off than anything. Interrupting sleep more than usual, harder to ignore…. sigh, the struggle without an end…
Categories: Uncategorized
Tagged: , chronic pain management, Dealing with it: Meds, Acupuncture, the How's of Coping, death wish, Riding the Tiger, sciatica, suicide
Well, out of the blue the sciatica down the left side has acted up again with vigor.It’s been a number of years since it got this bad. Trying to examine all the usual triggers in my ’system’:Is it…diet?heavy lifting episode?Stress?Too much coffee or alcohol?Long uninterrupted sitting, standing or walking?Suppressed (or repressed) anger?Failure to relax? Well, the answer is ‘no’, except maybe to the anger thing (got angry at the wife the other day), but hardly a true triggerbased on past experiences.
This sciatica is not — I pray — the sign of some structural or tissue shift. It does lessen with prone rest, but sometimes still can wake me at night…argh.
In the first few years of my journey with chronic pain such a development would have set me into a crisis. I would be tensing up, stressing out, probably taking more meds etc and end up making all the pain types worsen (there’s sciatica, shooting localized pain, burning pain and neuropathy from hips down). Maybe I’m just older, or maybe wiser (I hope the latter). But still, I confess to some anxiety were it to turn out that something structural was going on…will wait & see.
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Tagged: chronic pain, Dealing with it: Meds, Acupuncture, the How's of Coping, neuropathic pain, neuropathy, sciatica
